Just a little shameless..

1:00 AM

Lord, make me a little shameless,

To be childishly adamant without being embarrassed..
To be able to jump in the road side pools formed by rains without hesitation..
To shed table manners, when I feel like, wherever I am..
To be able to sing without worrying about what others would think..
To stomp my foot and insist that I want something..
To be able to hop about whenever I feel like without caring for the onlookers' disdain..
To have pillow fights with a sibling no matter how old I am..
To indulge like a three year old..
To forget all about etiquettes..

I want to realize that it pays to be a little shameless,
When I accept that I am lost..
When I accept that I have lost the cause..
When I don't take a stance when everyone says I got to..
When I sit tight and do nothing when you ought to do something but not able to..
When I court my love..
When I confess that I miss someone dear..
When I park aside my values that I have grown with, for a seemingly higher cause..
When I am silent when people around me insist something must be said..
When I stay indecisive longer than usual about something of utmost importance..
When I watch two people I care for fight..

I wish I could be a little shameless - just a little shameless
When I accept that I let someone to become intimate enough to hurt me..
To bring myself to accept the fact that I alone cannot satiate my own needs..
To feign ignorance to avoid the rough seas..
To swallow the hurt and fake a smile when you are bleeding inside and cannot accept it hurts and be honest about it..
To let someone else be responsible for my happiness and sorrows..
To allow myself to pour my heart out to keep me sane..
To do what I think to be mediocre trivia with greatest care for someone dear..
To be able to take the conflict between two people without reservations..

God, bless me with a thick skin
To be just a little selfish when I believe that it would do everyone good..
To vent out frustrations once in a while..
To let my eyes well up and let the tears roll down my cheeks beyond the comfort of privy quarters..
To be able to demand what I want of someone intimate..
To pin point someone's mistakes bluntly..
To be less guilty to save me some pain..
To be able to let down someone when I have to..
To turn my back on someone in need of help when I know I cant help..
To run away from war front to fight yet another day..
And for many more inexplicable deeds..